Often times while going through a spiritual awakening we may feel victimized; victimized by our ravaging emotions and our tumultuous mind; victimized by how others perceive of us; victimized by the thought “What the hell is happening with me?”
10 years after been awakened to my soul’s essence, I am at a point in my life, where I am recalling the past 10 years and all that has transpired during this time. While at one place in my belly sits a small child feeling victimized by what happened in my inner world and all the suffering it went through, a higher part of me tells me to be grateful for the experience for it has endowed me with many many spiritual gifts, I can serve the world with. “Be grateful for the long cries, be grateful to all the spiritual masters who came into your life to serve you, be grateful to all the souls who did not approve of you and more so, be grateful to your own soul for endowing your physical body with the Light it today carries!”
Taking this moment today, I would like to give my sincerest gratitude to the Divine, to my own soul, to all my Spiritual Fathers and Mothers who helped me through this journey and who continue to help me without me even being aware of it.
I would like to start with my own parents, who gave me birth and who went out of their way to find a cure to my spiritual, mental and emotional illness. Thanks to the beloved Grand Master Choa Kok Sui who brought the art of Pranic Healing to the world. Pranic Healing was the first healing modality I came across. The meditations on Twin Hearts, Meditation on the Blue Pearl and more were my first friends who took me deep into my inner world and provided me with the much needed healing and helped in the expansion of my Consciousness.
Just like different teachers serve us in school at different times of our school life, new teachers come to teach us on our spiritual journey as well. After having embraced the teachings of Master Choa Kok Sui, I was led into the Oneness Mission led by Amma Bhagwaan. It was here that I felt the first and only experience of Kundalini awakening and the opening of my third eye.
As I continued to move on, I was introduced to Nichiren Buddhism, a unique mission empowering people with the Light of Courage, Wisdom and Compassion. Chanting Nam Myoho Renge Kyo served as a Lion’s Roar for me in times of despair and anxiety. As I continued to chant, I discovered the teachings being spread by another Spiritual Master Teacher known as Dr and Master Zhi Gang Sha. The soothing light of the soul songs, and the various teachings that empower you to bring healing to your own self in every aspect of your life, are something worth studying and investing your time in, in order to understand the deeper wisdom behind them.
Sometimes it does become a challenge to embrace a teaching due to the doubts we have in our minds and the fears whether a path is a true path or not. Moreover, what we find ourselves in alignment with, other people in our environment may not. But all over the years one thing that I have learnt is, if your heart finds its alignment somewhere, surrender and embrace the teachings. As the saying goes, ” If you want to know whether a pear is sweet, taste it”. Taste it and discover for yourself what works for you and what doesn’t and you shall eventually find the true calling of your heart. As you pass through these spiritual stages, your soul continues to receive more Light and more Wisdom. Whether at any stage you believed in a certain teaching or not, or you liked a certain teacher or not, or maybe things were simply good for you but the teacher you were associated with started to become part of some accusations, please know that every teacher served you in some way and the only way to carry the Light in your heart is to be grateful to all those who taught you along the way.
I would like to conclude this little glimpse into my soul journey till now, by the words of Rumi who calls upon each one of us to listen to the callings of our hearts and souls.
Come back my soul, how much longer will you linger in the garden of deceit?
I have sent you a hundred messages, I have shown you a hundred ways
Either you never read them or you ignore my advice.
Come back my soul, do not waste time with the cold-hearted
They do not know your worth.
Why do you seek water when you are the stream?
Have you forgotten? You are the King’s falcon, you are a ray of the Beloved, a divine wonder!
With much love and light,